I used to think that life was perfect, but it isn't and most of the time it is what you make it. I'm learning that more and more these days and trying to remember that I must make myself happy, I can not rely on every one else to do that for me. I'm trying different things and writing really helps. Come along on my journey as I Bloom.
Monday, April 15, 2013
The Other Side 4-15-2013
I'm now on the other side of my life. My childhood past, but not forgotten fades just a little. My children are getting older one off to college soon, the other 15 going on 30. It is in some ways a good place to be and I'm not disappointed in it, was only hoping to be a little further along on the life path of what I really wanted. We don't always get what we want, so we make the best of what we do have. Only in myself am I disappointed, not in anyone else.
I only wish that I had been a little stronger and reached for what I wanted and not let anyone else tell me any different. I had ample opportunities to take a hold of many different things but was afraid. Afraid of failing, afraid of someone not approving. I let fear control a big part of my life, but I'm on the other side now and I can see there was nothing to be afraid of, I held myself back. I will no longer do that. I will speak up for myself, and I will be heard. My thoughts will find fruition in anything I can make happen.
Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go. T. S. Eliot